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take a trip through creative thought process of the artist.

• bloodline simulcast

• lineage simulcast

• egregore simulcast

• 3gregore

• What if there was a guy named Greg Ore?

• He could be a geologist. I always loved rocks. I went to rock shows where they would sell bags of different minerals and things. Amazing times. I also wanted to be an archeologist, paleontologist and historian. All of which I consider myself now. I’m not an expert on rocks but it’s written I will be.

• Final Egregore

• I think about what the final god we believe in will be. I read about Glycon and one of the things I understood is that it was one of the last Roman gods to be found/worshiped before that type of polytheism was taken over by Christianity or something. The idea of the last deity is intriguing. Who will the last person on Earth worship? I also wonder what the microscopic creatures at the bottom of the ocean worship

• Heart Sleeve

• We spent many years beating ourselves up over “oversharing,” but we’ve embraced it as a positive. More as wearing our heart on our sleeve. That’s a very macabre saying and I love that. I love sending the real heart emoji instead of the heart shape emoji. Being vulnerable is wonderful!

• The library of abundance

• We imagine there is an infinite library in our inner world. It is one akin to cosmic level knowledge. Knowledge isn’t power for us it just is there if you look. I find it interesting that a lot of experimental psychology is essentially studying the worldbuilding in mythology/belief systems of yore. The idea of archetypes and all that has always been there. Everything has always been there. We glorify the idea of time as a linear concept, it’s sort of the elephant in the room that every generation thinks we are at the peak. The truth we find is there is no peak. Knowledge is everywhere, the past, the present, the future, in a trees bark. Trees are amazing. They can live longer than so many creatures and they stay in one place outside. That’s remarkable.

• Dire bitch biography

• I know bitch is a derogatory word but I love pairing it next to empowering words for us. Like saying bitch prophecy or bitch rituals. It’s a very good way to express the contradiction of being enlightened but also viewed as dumb no matter what. Like you know what yeah I’m smart but I’m also a bitch and a faggot and I hate society like a goth kid. Life contains multitudes and I will embrace every component of the elephant in the room.

• Oblivious to the wind I stare at the crumbled up dirt in my hand. Falling through my fingers, I embody the dirt as it leaves my palm. Leaves fall down off the trees that stand in a line on the edge of the field. There’s bales of hay rolling up pristine and sparkling. I’ve never been particularly interested in theorizing about the end of the world, because there’s always an after. It seems to be an expression of our fear of the finality of death. As a culture we project the ending of our world weather that be capitalism our life itself or even personal hardship as the end of something. The truth is there isn’t an end to anything. Even if we all die tomorrow what is that the end of? People. That’s not even the end of the world that doesn’t make sense. The world will end when it explodes but there’s other worlds and potentially other life out there. There is life on earth that will prevail forever and I think our conception of the end of the world is why we are frozen in being complacent with capitalist destruction. The fact is we are killing ourselves, not the world. Yes life will die if we keep going but the fact of the matter is we have to care about each other. I really enjoyed the new Superman film, I cried multiple times because it expressed what I have been feeling. There isn’t really that much complexities to doing good. It can be as simple as saving a squirrel saving a dog or stopping violence if you have the power too. Standing up for people isn’t an intellectual exercise because we all know what’s wrong when its front of us. Even the people committing it know. The fact of the matter is we don’t have to explain, explaining good is futile when it can be performed or become a lifestyle. I believe that good has never been about preventing bad it’s about speaking up. Preventing is a very weak way to approach something in my opinion. In most circumstances evil only prevails because noone is speaking. It’s not some savior shit, that’s the police complex. I think as a wider impact neoliberalism has had is the “kindness” washing of police mindset. The idea of Lolcows getting mass bullied and then when they do something bad people excuse all previous stalking and abuse to that person is example of this. The prevalence of Lolcows as a concept that’s become more popular is directly a symptom of online leftism really not being anything. Constantly looking for a reason to punch down on someone is reactionary regardless of if they’ve done some bad shit. I don’t really have a moralist take on Lolcows because I don’t expect mainstream society to ever be nice to strange people but they should stop acting like they’re nice. What’s gonna happen at the end of the world?

• I stopped and turned the corner and went the other direction. Some kid is trying to follow me. I always am mindful of if a car loops back around twice when I’m out. The holly bush is making eyes at me. Maybe there’s a opossum in there. A raccoon runs in the distance across the street. I’m starting to hate these street lights. They make me feel sickly. Outside the wind blows everyday now, too much wind and it’s cold wind. The chill of wind feels like sandpaper on my skin. I’m fine with any temperature but when there’s cold wind I can’t exist. I’m already gone from here but somehow my physical reality hasn’t caught up. I’ve done all the grieving I can do. Now I sit in the library and read poems in Spanish. Photography prints at the library and paintings by Rembrandt and sketches of the Sistine chapel. No more pondering, what do I hold? I hold a pencil and my wrist has a bracelet with catholic saints on it. I wear it as a dedication to Santeria. There’s conflicts within the systems that have birthed new people. There’s a brigade of lesbians again.

• names:

• dust bunny

• Claudia Wilson

• grandmother clock

• 24 years

• Natasha Matrix

• Tara Markov

• cebe

• Evelyn Luvtell

• luv

• flux

• Erica Kane

• Charlotte’s Web

• miss mxyzptlk

• marsha mathers

• Legislatrix

• tefe holland

• kry infinity

• evieluv222

• Claudia Wilson

• study guide

• myriad

• empty

• Darth Gock

• 4788.frank

• bloke

• mud

• myriad

• the librarian

• samara the moth

• dark krystal

• rat kitten

• grey skin

• no bloodline

• ignoto y libre

• Yellama Devi

• Shelby Butterson

• grey infinity

• grey lorelei

• cicada scribe

• glitch witch

• paige sample

• joebie trygonilope

• rosemary hatequiet

• grey infinity

• evelyn myriad luvtell

• album names:

• Brown recluse crawling up my leg while im pissin’

• ward prescriptions

• 4th wall break

• worn band aids in my breakfast cereal

• a death in the family

• antiquity

• arbitrary

• you don’t have what it takes to be me

• stating a fact with the tone of judgement

• the novelty of becoming

• dirge funeral rite

• Antiquity Codex

• lament

• mourn

• crying out and i cant hear it

• ideal

• different piles for a different price

• a room on the door

• a room on a door

I went out one day and saw the garbage man taking the garbage out I threw away a lot of jars of peanut butter in there and I prayed my friends mom wouldn’t see because she is a stickler about recycling. I love recycling and saving the earth but I do not want to fucking clean out peanut butter jars, I eat like 5 a week. Peanut butter is a good food for when you are forgetting to eat. Just place a jar of peanut butter next to me so I’m reminded. Outside it’s getting colder I think fall is coming. Is fall still a thing anymore? What’s the deal with climate change? - Jerry Seinfeld. I’m ready to explore the world. I will learn many languages and I’m excited to learn more about spirituality I read about some spiritual topics that I will do further research on today. Many to do with the neoplatonist philosophy. I stumbled upon the idea of theurgy and it intrigued me to learn more because I have practiced things akin to that. Also things to do with emanation. I downloaded 2 or 3 very big folders with books on these things. I love learning. It is a great joy. Food for thought. Food for the soul.

If anyone wants to discuss spiritual or musical or artistic concepts with me hmu.

I’m going to world build now.